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newer-older-profile-gbook-notes- e-mail-dland friend of harry. 03.10.02 at 10:51 pm 0 comments so far i went to ysftm [young seattle ftms], a group formed for ftms under the age of thirty. it was fun, but rather dull. i found myself annoyed with one member to the extent that i didn�t believe they were trans. that�s, without a doubt, the most invalidating thing i could have thought. i can�t know why the thought crossed my mind, only that maybe it was an act to validate my own gender identity. i was flattered at the meeting when i said, ��i don�t pass very well� and the facilitator said, �on broadway, maybe?� �no. i got harrassed in west seattle.� �really?!?� woohoo! one down. today my mind has been saturated with the whole �who am i attracted to� issue. i think i�m attracted to the masculine? but i don�t think i could be with a heterosexual bio boy because i don�t think i could be dominated in that way � it would seem that i would lose power. but, again, i can�t know why that�s important to me. but to phrase it more appropriately, i would be powerless, and violated? whereas, with a transguy or dyke daddy, i wouldn�t see myself in that position. i think it�s maybe because i can understand where they�re coming from, and it doesn�t [necessarily] tie in a raft of societally based issues. i�m not sure i can fully articulate my thoughts on this quite yet. i�m not sure what i feel about gay men yet either. but i think i�m done with girls for now. how would you ask someone if they�re trans? like the gay boys said, �are you a friend of dorothy?� we could say, �are you a friend of harry benjamin?� eheh.
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