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newer-older-profile-gbook-notes- e-mail-dland geeked! 04.18.02 at 12:05 am 0 comments so far LPboy21 (11.07p): i think i might live in a house with friends. AmyAbsolut (11.07p): thats dope LPboy21 (11.07p): actually, we're thinking of growing dope. AmyAbsolut (11.07p): haha LPboy21 (11.07p): yeup. LPboy21 (11.12p): dope. LPboy21 (11.12p): i'm going to start saying that more often. AmyAbsolut (11.15p): plug me in your diary, i need publicity LPboy21 (11.16p): okay? LPboy21 (11.25p): can i work those jobs without having finished my education? AmyAbsolut (11.28p): check out ctwo.org (i think)... and its the MAAP program AmyAbsolut (11.28p): i'm going to do their mini-training next weekend and i am geeked about it LPboy21 (11.28p): geeked! AmyAbsolut (11.29p): yeah man, geeked! LPboy21 (11.34p): what am i going to do?!? AmyAbsolut (11.34p): an organizer named david that i work with did it when he was feeling lost and angry in his life, and he's a city-wide youth organizer now, and he talks about it all the time LPboy21 (11.35p): did he finish school? AmyAbsolut (11.36p): yeah he did i think. AmyAbsolut (11.37p): but you will too, so don't sweat it LPboy21 (11.37p): i just don't know what decisions i should be making, and how. AmyAbsolut (11.37p): i didnt finish school, and i'm an organizer! LPboy21 (11.37p): you are right. LPboy21 (11.38p): but i have a hard time taking my mind out of its place, and envisioning myself elsewhere... AmyAbsolut (11.39p): yeah i hear you. just do whatver you feel youve gotta do... LPboy21 (11.39p): I DON'T KNOW!!! AmyAbsolut (11.40p): this is just a good opportunity and a way to buy time and learn things you never will in school, among people youll never meet in school. Kind of like an internship, but honestly its like learning a trade, i think. AmyAbsolut (11.42p): but you have to follow your heart LPboy21 (11.42p): i don't know where my heart goes. AmyAbsolut (11.47p): i'm sensing you're not digging your school that much? LPboy21 (11.48p): no. LPboy21 (11.48p): not so much. LPboy21 (11.48p): i mean, academically, fine. LPboy21 (11.48p): socially, fine. LPboy21 (11.48p): but it's not MY school. AmyAbsolut (11.48p): i hear you LPboy21 (11.48p): i'm just trying to get the idea that it's okay not to be in school thru my head and it's really fucking hard. LPboy21 (11.50p): you know, i really enjoy craig david. why?!? LPboy21 (11.50p): there are all these protests in seattle this weekend... AmyAbsolut (11.50p): AH me too!! LPboy21 (11.50p): my friends are all going. AmyAbsolut (11.50p): (craig david) LPboy21 (11.50p): but i'm working at starbucks!!! LPboy21 (11.50p): how funny is that. AmyAbsolut (11.50p): ha! starbucks is holding back the activist in ya LPboy21 (11.50p): is it? AmyAbsolut (11.50p): ironic or not AmyAbsolut (11.54p): you know there's all this pressure to get thru school, get through, blah blah, but it will happen when it happens! you are SO YOUNG, and better to get and live life, learn things, however you can do it. FUCK academia. i hate it. I vow not to ever be a stupid lifeless intellectual AmyAbsolut (11.55p): wow that got me all geeked about life. LPboy21 (11.55p): but i haven't been able to get it in my head. LPboy21 (11.55p): i wholly believe it, but i can't conceptualize it in my life. AmyAbsolut (11.55p): thats because youre in school. before that you were at home. LPboy21 (11.55p): gr. AmyAbsolut (11.56p): you are surrounded by people who are on that same track. LPboy21 (11.56p): but, no, some are leaving. AmyAbsolut (11.56p): yeah but everyone always leaves on a note of defeat, right? LPboy21 (11.56p): maybe. i'm not sure. AmyAbsolut (12.00a): i only say all this cause i found a meaningful job that opened up a new world to me. but i feel like you could too...because you're a smart person and truly good, i believe. moreso than most people. LPboy21 (12.00a): thank you. LPboy21 (12.00a): i think i know that? hopefully without being conceited. but i'm mentally stuck. LPboy21 (12.01a): and i think i just have to do something out of the ordinary for me...something that makes me scared. AmyAbsolut (12.01a): yeah totally AmyAbsolut (12.02a): i think you're smart in a real way, which means you need real challenges AmyAbsolut (12.04a): because unlike most i think you have a deep respect for real PEOPLE... AmyAbsolut (12.04a): and i dont know what that means, but it means sumthin LPboy21 (12.04a): thanks. LPboy21 (12.05a): it would be valuable for me to do something DIFFERENT. AmyAbsolut (12.05a): s'true AmyAbsolut (12.05a): right on LATER THAT EVENING LPboy21 (12.34a): i think i want to live in a co-op with all my friends. LPboy21 (12.34a): but, they'll all leave, one by one. LPboy21 (12.34a): sad. AmyAbsolut (12.34a): in school? LPboy21 (12.35a): no, in life. AmyAbsolut (12.36a): you are a very organic individual LPboy21 (12.36a): ? AmyAbsolut (12.36a): and i mean that not in the hippie sense LPboy21 (12.36a): ??? AmyAbsolut (12.36a): i mean, you are very natural LPboy21 (12.36a): hrm? AmyAbsolut (12.37a): it's in your soul LPboy21 (12.37a): explain what it is. AmyAbsolut (12.37a): youre an organically evolving person, and i like it. LPboy21 (12.38a): explain organic. AmyAbsolut (12.38a): organic, natural.... hmm how else to explain? AmyAbsolut (12.40a): you remind me of a plant. you don't know how to describe what you need or want, but you know what you need and want AmyAbsolut (12.42a): i just think it's a rare and special quality. AmyAbsolut (12.43a): beautiful, really. LPboy21 (12.45a): you really know how to make a boy feel good.
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